Regrets
I submitted the Confusion post weeks ago. I’ll name him drake. He has a tumblr account. It made me nervous before but then, I realized I don’t care. Nothing will change anyway.
So it keeps from going. We keep on texting and somehow, from bullying each other, things became slightly serious. Then one day, two days after the school year-end, he sent a group message: “I wish i didn’t go to our year-end party. GM” I asked him why and he won’t tell me. I told him: Ok, you’re sad. Tell me. What are friends for.” It stung. Using the word friend. But anyway, I asked him if he was broken-hearted. He replied,”I don’t know if we’re going to make it.”
It hurt but I still talked to him like I don’t care, that he should move on, that everything’s gonna be okay and besides, he’s still young. I wish I can tell him I like him.
Another. This one is days before the year-end. We talked, we texted. Our language is tagalog and he keeps on texting me using english. I asked him why and he told me that he’s practicing. Deep inside me, I knew what for. I chatted with his mom about that thing months ago. Something turned inside me while I asked him what for. He said that it was for the time when he will go to Hawaii with his family. SO I WAS RIGHT.
I asked him what will he do if his mom insisted on going to Hawaii even before we graduate from College. He’d said he’ll go with the flow. I sensed that he’s sad so I sent this: It’s hard to say goodbye, isn’t it? :) His reply: Yeah. Especially to you…
I nearly cried. I don’t know if he’s telling the truth. Everything’s so confusing.
